Create Like a Child

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via Daily Prompt: Create

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To create is to live. I believe that every single one of us on the planet has the ability to create and be creative, and I believe that through a creative process, we come alive.

As a child many of us are constantly creating, making a mud hill, painting a picture, creating a make believe world, a story, lego structures, forts, etc. I believe that through this creative process we learn. It is a way of interacting with the world, of pushing boundaries and limits and learning about yourself.

The simple joy of creating a mud hill, playing in water or drawing for the sake of drawing seems to disappear when we are adults, and yet I believe that this process something so naturally human. It is a basic creative mode, where there is no goal, no outcome to be monitored or assessed, just fun to be had in being creative.

This is something I vow to do more of, to reconnect with that creative inner child, who has no critical demons demolishing the thing that she creates with self doubt and ideas of failure. To just create for the sake of creating and just to be in the moment with that process.

Trace of you

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I trace things with my thumb. My own imaginary lines, following what my eyes see. Have done for as long as I can remember.

Subtitles, facial features, road signs, punctuation, clothing hems, angular shapes.

Imagine how beautiful it is..

when I get to trace your face.

Your eyes are mesmerizing, full of mischief and joy, each crinkle, lined with my thumb as you laugh at me..

Your lips, so full and tempting, line by line dancing around the ball of my thumb. If only I could reach out and trace them for real..

I know your face by heart, I could draw you a thousand times, every expression, every minute detail, I can close my eyes and there you are…line by line dancing around my thumb..

 

 

 

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It’s not what you think

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Fantastic read

The First Ten Words by Rich Larson

Chris Cornell, 1964-2017

Chris Cornell died early Thursday morning. His band Soundgarden played a show on Wednesday night at the Fox Theater in Detroit. Two hours after the show ended, he was gone.

For two days, I’ve been working on a piece to pay tribute to him, and it’s been a struggle. Usually when I have a problem like this it’s because I’m staring at a blank screen trying to figure out what I want to say. That’s not the problem this time. The problem is I have way too much to say.

I’m not going to sit here and claim to have been a huge fan of Soundgarden. I didn’t dislike them, I just had to take them in small doses. I was a fan of Cornell. I love “Seasons,” the solo song he had on Cameron Crowe’s movie, Singles. It’s a droning acoustic song about isolation and the…

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Impression

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Some people leave an impression. Like an indent in your brain or your soul.

Sometimes it’s bad and it hurts and that scarred piece of you will never be the same, always bearing the imprint of the impression left behind. But let’s not talk about negatives.

Let’s talk about the people who’s impression makes you better. I only have a very small handful of these, but they are like a magic tonic for the soul.

Just thinking about the way someone looks when they smile can make my chest swell and my face wear my own unbreakable smile. A throwaway comment or funny quip, otherwise meaningless, can sum up someone’s personality and every reason why you love them, and it fills a tiny part of you. I get a text and my face splits in two because the person I am talking to is so beautifully them, mischievous and playful, and witty and them and I love them for every reason and no reason. These people have left their impression on my soul, people who I will always and forever have alongside me, in my heart and in my brain. Something about them has made me better, made me more whole, and I can only hope I have done the same for them.

Each of these people, and each moment makes me. Instead of the imprint taking away, it shapes, molds, and fills me up with the things that I think really define and create my life. Not the long list of achievements, or the long list of things I haven’t got round to achieving, but the long list of times I have felt that imprint tingle within me, and smiled because one of my favourite humans is there.

Creative Block

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Perhaps I am just destined to live my life feeling vaguely frustrated and agitated and not being able to put my finger on it and fill it.

Lately I have been feeling a creative block. Inspiration has been at my fingertips but just out of reach.

I find it so easy to slip into a numb yet frustrated melancholy when this occurs, and give up on things too easily, because I just don’t have the will power or incentive to try anything. All too often I will be struck by some inspiration or motivation but when I’m busy doing something else, and by the time I am free to do whatever it was I was feeling excited about, that feeling has gone and I end up doing nothing. That is exactly why I am writing this at this moment in time, I arrived at work today and was suddenly filled with positivity and inspiration and motivation and sunshine, but I can’t do any of the things that I truly want to be doing because I am stuck at work for the next 8.5 hours. So instead I am channeling that feeling into writing, that energy has to go somewhere, and no, I don’t want to channel it into my work, thanks. My work is uninspiring and suffocating, so let’s leave that there.

 

But I find it so hard to be creative and motivated at home!!

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I notice though that despite now feeling the inspiration and motivation, it has not got rid of the frustration. Perhaps I am just destined to live my life feeling vaguely frustrated and agitated and not being able to put my finger on it and fill it.

When I have no motivation I find myself filled with doubt, insecurities, self-dissatisfaction, self-berating thoughts which push me further into the hole that I am in, but I seem quite incapable of stopping myself from doing it. I have no internal locus of evaluation, which is pathetic, and probably why I can’t commit to anything or get my arse in gear and do things.

So today I feel pumped and I want to go to a yoga class and a Zumba class and go find a beer garden near a river and fall asleep on some grass and sit under a tree and read a book, and I want to write, and get on with some of my projects and take pictures of weird tiny objects and make a cool thing and organise my belongings and maybe hang some pictures….

I resent my work because I don’t want to be here. When these moods strike me I want to be free to do something about it. By the time I have finished work and got home my enthusiasm for doing things has waned considerably, and I tend to dick around, or hang out with people, instead of doing something productive, and I can’t keep beating myself up about it, because I have been doing something productive for 9 hours, it was just for someone else’s benefit, not mine.

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So maybe I can’t control my swings of motivation vs hedonism, but I should probably try to be nicer to myself about it and stop beating myself up and holding myself to such a ridiculously high standard, or at least I can hold myself to that standard but not expect myself to meet it every second of every day. It is ok to have blips and emotions and not be feeling it.

 

Read this awesome article by Saving Sarah Grace

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Change can be a mother effer. I’m not even talking about change that happens to you that you had no choice in. Or change that happened slowly, quietly creeping up on you until you realize it’s here [ ta da! ]. No – even when you really really really want to change something, and you […]

via 5 dirty little lies your brain tells you that get in the way of change — saving sarah grace

RIP Chris Cornell

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Today we learned the sad news that Chris Cornell passed away age 52.

He was an incredibly talented musician, who had an amazing voice, and will be sorely missed by his fans. I cannot imagine what those who knew him must be going through.

Personally, I have been a huge fan of Chris Cornell, ever since I first heard of him. I thought he was the most beautiful man I had ever seen, and his voice captivated me, it was so powerful. He had a way of conveying emotion very subtly in his voice, and I started trying to listen to and devour whatever I could get my hands on (being of the generation that wasn’t born into a world with YouTube, that wasn’t easy), but I couldn’t get enough of the feeling listening to him and his music gave me.

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Be it Soundgarden, Temple of the Dog, Audioslave or solo stuff I loved all of it.

Grunge music is a huge part of my life, and to me is home. People like Chris Cornell, Eddie Vedder, Scott Weiland, Layne Stayley, Dave Grohl etc, these people are my imaginary family, the artists who give my life such a beauty, help me find meaning, find myself. Their music is a safe haven that I can retreat to, a comfort blanket I can wrap myself in, a way of connecting with my inner self.

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When Scott Weiland died I was shocked, but I wasn’t surprised. It was incredibly tragic, but it was not a surprise. With some people, I guess somewhere in the back of your head, you don’t give them an old age life expectancy. But Chris Cornell, it’s different. I am stunned, speechless.

I was lucky enough to see Soundgarden in 2012 or 2013, whichever year they played Download, and my god they were amazing. I always wanted to see them again, but instead I shall dig out the photos and videos and make sure that I have double, triple backed them up.

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I recently found on YouTube a video (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuUDRU9-HRk) of him covering “Nothing Compares 2 U” and I have played it numerous times, the stripped back sound meaning his voice rings clear, and you can hear every intonation, every note

To me, he will always be one of the world’s most sexy, gorgeous men, one of the world’s best singers and best musicians.

I wish I could thank him for everything he has given me.

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